Finally Moving Forward

I went to the ob/gyn today to discuss our options and see how to proceed forward, since it has now been one year since we first started TTC - and let me first say I heart my doctor. I met with the mid-wife previously, so today was my first meeting with the actual doctor and she rocks my socks off. 

So, we decided since I did not respond properly to provera (it didn't jump-start me like it was supposed to - back in '06 before I had even started dating DH), I will start Aygestin (similar to Provera) to induce a period. So I take that 2x/day for 10-days. Unfortunately, I'm going to have a God-awful period on this - super heavy, clotty, and painful - which I have been through before when I took Provera. On Provera, I was seriously ready to have the doctor rip everything out b/c I was done.

Once I get my period, I was start...Clomid. I had mixed feelings about it, but I feel better knowing that I will be monitored throughout the cycle, and the doctor will not refill the prescription without seeing me in her office first. She also will only let her patients be on it for three cycles. I feel a lot better about it knowing that I will be checked during the cycle, instead of just continuing taking something without knowing (other than charting) whether or not it is actually working.

So...I take the Clomid at 50mg for days 5-9; I have to have blood work done at some point between CD 3-5, and then again at some point between CD 21-23. I go back in 6 weeks for a mini/quick pelvic to make sure the ovaries are not over-stimulated. Of course, we were instructed to have sex every other day starting on a specific CD, so that will be interesting if the husband is working at night or out of town - guess I'll be doing a little driving, if need be!

And that's that. Billy may or may not have an SA done - she said there's nothing at this point to concern her of an issue on his end, but she also wouldn't mind knowing for sure, so she kind of left it up to us b/c most insurance companies don't cover it, and if ours doesn't, it'll be $100-150 for it. We haven't decided if this is something we want to do yet or not b/c it goes against our religious beliefs as Catholics, so that is going to require some additional discussion to see if maybe there are any other methods we can use for that.

In the meantime, I've apologized in advance for any crazy Clomid-induced behavior to my boss, mom, and of course the husband. I think knowing that the possibility exists for crazy moodiness to occur makes you better prepared, but I might also be naive. I just like to try and think positively :-).

One More Week

Well, one week from tomorrow is our appointment with the doctor. I'm trying to prepare by researching Clomid and other treatments so we can have a real conversation and make an informed decision on how we are going to move forward from here.


In other news, it appears I did not ovulate as we had originally thought (and hoped). I'm bummed, but not surprised. I knew it was too good to be true, but I really wanted to believe it. Just once, I wanted to believe my plumbing would actually do something right, all on its very own. I have more to say, but I'm not really sure how to say it.

Appointment - Check!

Eek! I did it - I called my doctor's office, and scheduled an appointment to get things moving if this cycle doesn't work. We are currently scheduled for Tuesday, March 30th at 3:45pm. I will definitely be sure to post some updates after said appointment.


So now we are crossing our fingers for this cycle, but ready to move forward if we aren't so lucky this time around. Today I'm 7dpo, and plan on testing on Friday at 10dpo, and again on Sunday at 12dpo, if AF hasn't arrived by then.

Decision Made

Well, after much discussion, Billy and I have decided to go ahead and stick to the original plan of going back to the doctor for clomid/infertility. We had originally put the decision on hold due to financial concerns, but since things are looking much better in that regard, we decided to jump feet first into our next adventure.


I'll be calling and scheduling an appointment tomorrow, for hopefully either later this month or sometime in April. If we did get lucky this cycle, then I'll call and cancel or reschedule. At least this way we have the appointment in place should we need it. We're not completely giving up on this cycle; we just want a back-up plan if things don't work out the way we want them to.


I'm a little bit nervous...I'm afraid they won't start me on anything at all due to being overweight, and b/c of the Factor V Leiden issues (woot high-risk pregnancy and blood thinners - NOT!!!). I think I'm a little nervous too b/c I was getting really good at convincing myself that I'm okay not having children or that it wouldn't happen, so now it's like getting this new bubble of hope - and being unsure if it'll burst or not.

Cautiously Hopeful for Success

I just put in my information on FF, and I ovulated!!!!! I thought it would be Monday, but it thinks it was Tuesday...so cautiously hopeful that we timed things right. Otherwise it will be another 4 months until we get another chance, providing I ovulate once again, which would be July.

So, pray, cross your fingers, or whatever you do, b/c I need some good vibes! :-)

Change in Plans, Sort Of & Hopefully Good News

So...we've changed our plans once again. We're still putting the Clomid on hold until September, but have decided to at least try on our own until then. Why?


Partly b/c I felt like if my body cooperates, I'd rather take advantage of it and try naturally. I know Clomid is fine, and plenty of people have used it successfully, but I really want to try and see if I can't naturally. I know the chances are slim to none, but why should I give up? Plus, I'm not sure how  things will go in September if I show I ovulate and didn't take advantage.


I know it probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but it works for us. 


Which brings me to my bit of good news...I believe I ovulated today!! So we're keeping our fingers crossed...we'll see what happens. Keep your fingers crossed!

On Hold

Well, next month was supposed to be the month when we started fertility drugs (most likely Clomid). Supposed to...as in should be.  So, what changed?

Several things, all financial. A big mistake was made in reviewing our financial situation. We're doing okay, and have been sticking to our tight budget (well, for the most part anyways). But, we're not able to save as much money as we were planning to. Then it came time to do our taxes...and to make a long story short, we ended up owing this year. There went more debt and savings plans. So we took a long, hard look at our situation...we started a plan to be out of debt within 3 years. We started setting aside a small bit of money every week to re-build our savings - for emergency purchases, a too tight week, and for the future (house, baby, etc). In doing so, we realized with very heavy hearts that it was just not a financially responsible thing to do, intentionally bringing a child in when we're barely making ends meet with just the two of us.

So, our next goal is September...I have to go for a yearly anyway, and that should give us enough time to save money and we will re-evaluate at that time.

I'll still try and post on here once in a while, and of course, when we start anything.