I just put in my information on FF, and I ovulated!!!!! I thought it would be Monday, but it thinks it was Tuesday...so cautiously hopeful that we timed things right. Otherwise it will be another 4 months until we get another chance, providing I ovulate once again, which would be July.
So, pray, cross your fingers, or whatever you do, b/c I need some good vibes! :-)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Change in Plans, Sort Of & Hopefully Good News
So...we've changed our plans once again. We're still putting the Clomid on hold until September, but have decided to at least try on our own until then. Why?
Partly b/c I felt like if my body cooperates, I'd rather take advantage of it and try naturally. I know Clomid is fine, and plenty of people have used it successfully, but I really want to try and see if I can't naturally. I know the chances are slim to none, but why should I give up? Plus, I'm not sure how things will go in September if I show I ovulate and didn't take advantage.
I know it probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but it works for us.
Which brings me to my bit of good news...I believe I ovulated today!! So we're keeping our fingers crossed...we'll see what happens. Keep your fingers crossed!
Partly b/c I felt like if my body cooperates, I'd rather take advantage of it and try naturally. I know Clomid is fine, and plenty of people have used it successfully, but I really want to try and see if I can't naturally. I know the chances are slim to none, but why should I give up? Plus, I'm not sure how things will go in September if I show I ovulate and didn't take advantage.
I know it probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but it works for us.
Which brings me to my bit of good news...I believe I ovulated today!! So we're keeping our fingers crossed...we'll see what happens. Keep your fingers crossed!
Monday, February 22, 2010
On Hold
Well, next month was supposed to be the month when we started fertility drugs (most likely Clomid). Supposed to...as in should be. So, what changed?
Several things, all financial. A big mistake was made in reviewing our financial situation. We're doing okay, and have been sticking to our tight budget (well, for the most part anyways). But, we're not able to save as much money as we were planning to. Then it came time to do our taxes...and to make a long story short, we ended up owing this year. There went more debt and savings plans. So we took a long, hard look at our situation...we started a plan to be out of debt within 3 years. We started setting aside a small bit of money every week to re-build our savings - for emergency purchases, a too tight week, and for the future (house, baby, etc). In doing so, we realized with very heavy hearts that it was just not a financially responsible thing to do, intentionally bringing a child in when we're barely making ends meet with just the two of us.
So, our next goal is September...I have to go for a yearly anyway, and that should give us enough time to save money and we will re-evaluate at that time.
I'll still try and post on here once in a while, and of course, when we start anything.
Several things, all financial. A big mistake was made in reviewing our financial situation. We're doing okay, and have been sticking to our tight budget (well, for the most part anyways). But, we're not able to save as much money as we were planning to. Then it came time to do our taxes...and to make a long story short, we ended up owing this year. There went more debt and savings plans. So we took a long, hard look at our situation...we started a plan to be out of debt within 3 years. We started setting aside a small bit of money every week to re-build our savings - for emergency purchases, a too tight week, and for the future (house, baby, etc). In doing so, we realized with very heavy hearts that it was just not a financially responsible thing to do, intentionally bringing a child in when we're barely making ends meet with just the two of us.
So, our next goal is September...I have to go for a yearly anyway, and that should give us enough time to save money and we will re-evaluate at that time.
I'll still try and post on here once in a while, and of course, when we start anything.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Merry Christmas!
I hope everyone had a blessed and happy Christmas - I know I/we did! It was a lovely and quiet day. We opened our gifts to each other, followed by a trip to B's parents to do gifts with them and visit to his grandma. Then we went to my parents house to do gifts with them, and visited with my granparents. Afterwards, we came home and I cooked our Christmas dinner, which turned out really well. It was a little odd b/c it felt so quiet, and I told B that. He said he figured it was probably b/c we spent Christmas Eve with his family (about 20-30 people). I think it was probably a little bit of that, but it was more like a quiet, somethings missing type of feeling...and I thought to myself how different it would be if we had little ones around. For the first time though, I didn't get depressed about it, which may have something to do with a decision I made (with B's input of course), which I'll talk more about later in a different post.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Tough Week
In the past six months, we have learned of atleast 9 couples that are expecting their first bundle of joy (well, two are expecting their second). The hardest was learning about my sister, and then this past week I noticed some girls at church as starting to show (I used to go to school with them, but we don't talk much anymore). During Thanksgiving weekend,we learned that a girl from DH's church (who's still in high school, btw) is pregnant (she's 17). And a couple days ago we found out one of our best friends is expecting her second (she had been trying for over a year). It just seems like BAM! Everyone got a bottle of preggo water except me!
It's like a huge flashing sign telling me I screwed up this cycle. For the first time ever since coming off the Depo (not really sure if it was the first time all together, given that I could O sporadically), I ovulated, and couldn't see the signs. I knew in my heart it was a possiblity, but thinking that it was so incredibly unlikely, I didn't initiate anything. And the day went on by, and here we are, seeing our best friends and family start their families, and we're still here on the starting line. Billy tries to cheer me up, but I can't help but feel like I let us down. I should've known better. If I do ovulate again, it won't be until Feb./March, and in March we start Clomid. Just sucks a bit...
It's like a huge flashing sign telling me I screwed up this cycle. For the first time ever since coming off the Depo (not really sure if it was the first time all together, given that I could O sporadically), I ovulated, and couldn't see the signs. I knew in my heart it was a possiblity, but thinking that it was so incredibly unlikely, I didn't initiate anything. And the day went on by, and here we are, seeing our best friends and family start their families, and we're still here on the starting line. Billy tries to cheer me up, but I can't help but feel like I let us down. I should've known better. If I do ovulate again, it won't be until Feb./March, and in March we start Clomid. Just sucks a bit...
Sunday, November 15, 2009
One Year Anniversary!!
We celebrated with a weekend trip to Savannah, Georgia - and it was beautiful. I have been there several times, but never for fall, and Billy has only been there once before, when we went for St. Patrick's Day a couple years ago. We did the trolley tour, tasted wine, ate at 'The Distiller' which was awesome, and best of all, went on a private evening carriage ride. :-) We had a nice time together, and it was great to get a way from 'real' life, even if only for a couple days. I'll post more pics in bit from our actual anniversary, which is today. We have had a good year together, which a couple of speed-bumps along the way, but I can't imagine spending my life with anyone else - I love you, honey!!
The unfortunate thing is we learned the day we left that I ovulated two weeks prior, and of course, we did not have properly timed intercourse. So although we missed out on this cycle, the upside is that I did in fact ovulate, which has been a huge concern for quite sometime. The only downside is not knowing yet if this was just a fluke event, or if we will be lucky again on our next cycle. Only time will tell.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
What A Long Week!!!
In the past week, we learned my estranged sister and step-sister are both pregnant, a month apart from each other. Although initially somewhat happy for them (long story), it ripped my heart to pieces.
Which leads me to the remaining reason for why this week was so incredibly hellacious (sp?). My sister's contact with the fam has been on/off for the past couple years, and what contact there is/was has been rude, nasty, and full of hate. Once we found out she was pregnant again (*pour salt on wound*), everything seemed okay until Halloween night, when her and her husband went to our parents house to show them their daughter in her costume (so cute at 10 months!). During the visit, mom told R he should apologize to our step-dad B; R said it's time to go, and walked out. Shortly thereafter, M walked out with daughter S, without saying a word to either mom or B. A couple days letter, mom gets and email from M telling her that B should apologize to R, etc. with a bunch of other things I can't remember, but ending with something along the lines of them cutting ties with our parents. Mom chose not to respond out of hurt, but our brother decided to respond, and said his piece, and ended it by saying if she wants burn bridges, then he'll grant her that wish. Of course, then she had to respond, and hers was hurtful to our brother, but ended it with 'I hate you' (and bcc'd it to everyone in the family). So, to make a long story short, I feel as if I no longer have a sister. Which sucks, b/c we used to be like bff's. But I actually feel okay about it, and I'm not if it's because some part of me thinks someday we'll get past all of this, or b/c I've already made my peace about it months ago.
In happier news, though, we got iPhones!!!! I'm so excited, and I absolutely love it!!!! I can't imagine using a regular cell anymore.
In terms of our TTC, not much is new. Still charting and trying (still trying to figure out why its called 'trying' if you know you're annovulatory, or for that matter why they call it 'practicing', but that's a whole 'nother story). Hopefully will get to start my next cycle soon, which would be good.
Guess that's it for now!
Which leads me to the remaining reason for why this week was so incredibly hellacious (sp?). My sister's contact with the fam has been on/off for the past couple years, and what contact there is/was has been rude, nasty, and full of hate. Once we found out she was pregnant again (*pour salt on wound*), everything seemed okay until Halloween night, when her and her husband went to our parents house to show them their daughter in her costume (so cute at 10 months!). During the visit, mom told R he should apologize to our step-dad B; R said it's time to go, and walked out. Shortly thereafter, M walked out with daughter S, without saying a word to either mom or B. A couple days letter, mom gets and email from M telling her that B should apologize to R, etc. with a bunch of other things I can't remember, but ending with something along the lines of them cutting ties with our parents. Mom chose not to respond out of hurt, but our brother decided to respond, and said his piece, and ended it by saying if she wants burn bridges, then he'll grant her that wish. Of course, then she had to respond, and hers was hurtful to our brother, but ended it with 'I hate you' (and bcc'd it to everyone in the family). So, to make a long story short, I feel as if I no longer have a sister. Which sucks, b/c we used to be like bff's. But I actually feel okay about it, and I'm not if it's because some part of me thinks someday we'll get past all of this, or b/c I've already made my peace about it months ago.
In happier news, though, we got iPhones!!!! I'm so excited, and I absolutely love it!!!! I can't imagine using a regular cell anymore.
In terms of our TTC, not much is new. Still charting and trying (still trying to figure out why its called 'trying' if you know you're annovulatory, or for that matter why they call it 'practicing', but that's a whole 'nother story). Hopefully will get to start my next cycle soon, which would be good.
Guess that's it for now!
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